I wonder how many times I pick up your toys every day.
I wonder how many paper towels and baby wipes I go through cleaning your face, hands, hair and everything else after you eat.
I wonder how many diapers I really go through per day because that diaper pail gets full so fast.
I wonder how many more cell phones I will have to get because you ate the battery.
I wonder how many times I will have to put the kitchen stuff back in the cupboards and drawers because you learned how to open them.
I wonder how much laundry detergent and Shout! I will go through on your juice stained clothes.
I wonder how many times I’ll have to pick up food off the floor and empty out the high chair.
I wonder how many times I will have to say “no” until you finally get it and stop testing me.
I wonder for how long I will need to dance, sing and jump up and down to get you to stop crying.
I wonder if I’ll ever stop just watching you in awe that you are my daughter and so perfect.
I wonder if I’ll miss your infant car seat now outgrown, your Binky now in the drawer and your bottle because you would rather use a cup.
I wonder if I’ll miss feeding you because you now feed yourself.
I wonder if I’ll ever love anything more.
I really just wonder what my day would be like if I didn’t have you and I can’t imagine. I’m so glad my day is spent getting peanut butter out of your hair, having you yell while I try to get you to hold still cleaning your diaper, giving you numerous baths, having to repeat a certain book or song because you love it, tickling your toes and watching you crack up, turning on music and laughing while you bust a move, listening to you chat with all your stuffed animals and watching your eyes light up when I say, “daddy’s home!”
Although it takes a lot out of us, being a stay-at-home mom is absolutely the best “job.” I’m blessed I get to do it.